This sinful desire that won’t let me go, how much I struggle…

Only a while ago I started to feel as if I'm drowning. Those thoughts that are floating in my mind, like a leaf is floating down on a river, are something that I can’t control on my own. It’s been such a long time since I’ve felt the warmth of an embrace, or that whispering voice calling out my name. My voice is trying to reach you, but it won’t echo your heart even if I will stay alone in an empty room.

God, please, if You hear me, tell me that somewhere out there is a heart that will hear my outcry.

Even if I can’t make that heart to beat only for me, even for a second, I want to know that heart is beating. God, if You hear me, please make a heart like his to beat, just for him to see the light of the world, the glowing day, and the beauty of the full-moon nights. Please, just let him be there, anywhere You please, because I wonder if I can carry on with the speed of a world without him in it.

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Dear God, if You hear me, please lean you hand upon their heads and bless their hearts. That's the only wish I have today. Because of them I didn't feel lonely today, so thank You for the chance to meet them.

(My beloved sis., my family and my friends)